Monday, January 12, 2009

My cousin Lim Tee Hong Passed Away, Aged 29

On 12 Jan 10:12pm, I received a call informing me that my cousin has passed away in a road accident near Ipoh.

I couldn't breathe for several seconds as I was emotionally overwhelmed by his sudden passing away, this cousin of mine told me how he wished to have the opportunity to leave his family behind and completely forgot his unhappy unbringing, he said to me that "peace" was what he was pursuing; Tee Hong was from a very broken family where his father and mother would quarrel all day long and since young I ever saw him defending his mother when his parents got physical, he told me he never experienced "quietness" in his entire life...

I am sad because he is the only relative I have had with whom I could genuinely share my feelings, he was real to me so was I to him. Years ago, he ever asked me a question about eternity, and coincidentally, a pastor from America shared a similar topic at my church recently. I find it thought provoking and so I am writting this article at 4:13am on 13 Jan, to stave off insomnia resulting from the loss of a close friend and relative...

Those who know me well will know that I won't share my feelings easily in front of people, and I won't write an article to inform you of my current emotions or sadness, however, his sudden death prompted me to deeply look into this topic of "eternity" which is the eventuality you and I, regardless of language, race or religion, will have to face one day.
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Our conversation went on like these:
Tee: you believe in eternity or eternal life?
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Ben: yes, though all men are mortal, our journey of eternity started when we were born...
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Tee: how long is eternity or eternal life?
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Ben: eternity means forever, never ending, infinite...
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Tee: isn't it scary to live in heaven or in hell forever, never ending, infinitely....
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Ben: I am not sure, it could be quite scary in hell, but definitely not in heaven.
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Tee: you mean we will never "disappear" completely?
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Ben: we may die one day, but our soul will continue to "live" forever, either in hell or in heaven
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Tee: you selling christianity again...
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Ben: nope, every religion believes in eternity!
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Tee: so if I don't trust the existence of gods, then I can opt out of this circle of eternity or whatever crappy stuff, just live life happily and do whatever I want.
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Ben: gods or God don't require you to believe in his existence so can he exist.
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Tee: that means we have no choice, but must be forced to "enter" eternity, good or bad eternity??
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Ben: we have a choice to choose good eternity.
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Tee: you selling christianity again.
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Ben: haha, you've a choice
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Tee: why people talk about eternal life when the present life is miserable enough?
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Ben: present life and eternal life are NOT inseparable. We were created to freely choose either we want good eternity or bad eternity.
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Tee: why you think we are created by god?
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Ben: come on lah, you think the big bang will evolve into mankind that results your father sperms to mix with your mum eggs to produce you? (I take off the vulgar parts)
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Tee: this is something very natural, you have sex, then you will have baby...
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Ben: nothing is nothing, if the universe is nothing, then there is nothing...if there is something, there must be a beginning, everything with a "beginning", there must be a "beginner", so you think who was the first couple to have sex to produce mankind? and who produced them?
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Tee: they were monkey before they evolved into mankind with higher level of intelligence
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Ben: then who produced or created monkey?
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Tee: monkey came from a seashell.
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Ben: how can a seashell become monkey?
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Tee: theory of evolution lah, you never studied it ahhh...
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Ben: then who created seashell?
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Tee: Big bang lah...
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Ben: what caused the big bang?
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Tee: something natural, can't explain one lahhhh
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Ben: so this is what you say- out of nothing, there was a big bang, after the big bang, there was seashell, then the seashell became monkey, and monkey became u??
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Tee: maybe lahhh
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Ben: then everthing is meaningless. the big bang (got no emotions) - seashell (got no emotions) -then monkey (got emotions?) - you (very emotional??)
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Tee: life is meaningless wat...
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Ben: then how come not all the descendents of monkey think like you that life is meaningless.
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Tee: hard to explain lahhhh
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Ben: eternity is longer than 1000000000000000000000000000000000000 years, and you can only live at most for 80 to 90 years, your present life is just only the "smallest" dot as you compare to eternal life or eternity, whether you like it or not, this is the eventuality, your " extremely very-short" present life will determine your eternity, you'd better think about it.
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Tee: haha, better don't talk about it with me....
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Dear readers:
If you know your "8-hour" will the determine the result of your "1-week", will you be serious with your "8-hour"?
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If you know your "1-year" will determine the result of your "10-year", will you be serious with your "1-year"?
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If you know "10-year" will determine your "50-year", will be serious with your "10-year"?
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If you know your "85-year" will determine your 100000000000000000000000000000000 years, will you be serious with it? Your present life determines your eternity, let's live our life meaningfully!
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Live our daily life to the fullest and make every minute and second count, we have only one life to live!
It doesn't matter whether you will see Allah, Jesus or Buddha when you die, but I believe the "fact of the matter" will be that gods or God will ask you why didn't you apply yourself to make your life meaningful, fruitful and productive to impact the life of others? If you're a believer? Why are you still being so lazy and demand special protections and privileges? All men are equal before God...there is no racism in the realm of eternity! sorry I think I am talking about politics again.....
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Frankly, I don't know whether he is in heaven or in hell now, he attended church quite a couple of times when he was a young boy and since then he "explored" all kinds of gods, he even explored Islamic faith with his Muslim friends, but he accepted none as he thought life was meaningless...I wish I could see him in heaven, if I happen to be there myself!
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Tee Hong rest in peace and "quietness"!

May God bless Lim Tee Hong family members!

13 Jan 2009 6:12am finished writing....